Sunday, January 16, 2011
READY OR NOT
then (year 1)
(gosh, I look so TOOT! it's like the epitome of "nerdiness")
now (year 3)
we all change! (I can't help but always think to myself that my gfs are truly beautiful, inside out) <3
I admit that it's a tad (extremely) slow of me to only blog about the new year, now. could sense that my presence was greatly missed. awwwwwww I guess absence truly makes the heart fonder!
nonetheless, it's almost halfway through january (my fav month) and I'm less excited turning a year older (hitting 2 0, no more a teenager!).
mom: life in your 20's is gonna be fun! it's where you get to fall in love...
me: but mom, I don't want to fall in love:(
fast forward to a few weeks and I cant help but think that two is better than one. I doubt I have the gift of celibacy (so much for thinking that being a nun is cool as one gets to wear uber modest robes, devoting your life to the church by loving orphan kids. isn't that fulfilling?). I was blown away when my bf of 7 years (she was my bf since we were 13) told me that I'd probably get together with a guy whom I've been friends for many years. bingo! I treasure friendship above relationships (BGR) and I believe good things come to those who wait(: *I'll be in deep trouble if a cute christian guy makes his move. GULPS
the biggest thing on my, and my poly friends' mind is, "where do we go from here?" local u (nope cant make it, even as much as I want to), overseas (how can I leave everything behind; family, friends, thank God I don't have a boyfriend! to study overseas? and it isn't for missionary purposes!!). I hence conclude that I'll be studying in a private uni. away with self stereotype that I'm less competent...
I can't help but wish that I were normal! study in a jc, then moving on to proceed to a local u; just like everyone else. then again, I'm andrina. though I may not know now, why things are like that, but I'm sure that God has a great plan for me and that He'll see me through (regardless of the "out of the world" path that I may be taking).
(to the world) so ready or not, give me what you've got!
with love, at 11:42 AM
